Then she realized she could just jump into the abyss.
I’ve always secretly wanted to be a writer, ever since I was a little girl. Not as a full-time career, but more as a hobby that I could feel truly passionate about and just pour myself into.
I’m really not sure how realistic that is though, given that it genuinely takes me about 8 hours to write an essay that most people could finish in one. To be fair, teachers and professors have always complimented me on my writing skills, but… It’s never come easy to me.
Me and my best friend used to joke that if I started writing a novel full-time, I wouldn’t finish until I was on my deathbed.
I worry that that’s not far from the truth.
Still, I’ve decided to start a blog here. More as a journal to organize my own thoughts, rather than as any kind of social networking tool. But I’ve got really high hopes, that maybe this will help me improve. I haven’t much (well, any) professional writing experience, so this is going to be pretty novice and scattered.
I’m not sure if I’m ever going to have a single follower hahaha, but that is just fine; as I said, that isn’t my intent with this blog. Still, if you somehow find yourself checking out my blog or even following for some strange reason, then welcome!! Please feel free to ask any questions you’d like, I promise I’m friendly. :)
But well, despite my lack of any kind of experience, and my predisposition to be terrible at this sort of thing heheh, I’ve always felt incredibly passionate about prose. I have… a lot of trouble expressing myself verbally, or physically for that matter. A whole lot of trouble. So even if it is an excruciatingly slow process for me, this is really therapeutic in a way, and just… fun!
As for me as a person? 20 year old girl from Manitoba, Canada. Horrible procrastinator AND horrible perfectionist (in terms of creative endeavors, at least), so I don’t get a whole lot of sleep. P:
I love giant sweaters and warm blankets, sleeping all day, nature, especially forests, thunderstorms, autumn, animals, especially amphibians, insects and deep-sea creepies, Miyazaki films, ghost stories, textiles, maple syrup, and a million things more that I can’t think of right now.
I have severe, generalized Social Anxiety Disorder, but I have just recently started taking medication for it, and am crossing my fingers for any kind of results.
As the title says, I guess I’m a hedonist, (existential) nihilist, and an agnostic pantheist. However don’t worry, I’m not the type to ever get into any kind of heated debate. I like to believe that I know myself very well, and unfortunately I am full of some really weird contradictions. Oddly enough, I’ve been told multiple times that I am an extremely cheerful pessimist, and very calm for someone with a severe anxiety disorder.
I get my feelings hurt easily, but I don’t show it outwardly, and it is nearly impossible to make me angry. Despite the obvious anxiety, I really do like meeting new people and would love to be friends! I am bi, and sex and body positive.
There will definitely be some potentially triggering, offensive or disturbing themes, including death, theology, violence, mental illness, and more. However, I will try to always tag them accordingly, so that they can be blocked using Tumblr Savior.
Welp, if anyone ever even actually reads any of this post, let alone all of it, then… Well, thank you!! I hope you’ll maybe enjoy some of the things that you see here, and that you’ll drop me a line if you feel so inclined. :)
PS: In case this post wasn’t clue enough, I am tragically long-winded. I’m so sorry.
